Fast forward a few weeks, and Ron had just come home from a Holy Spirit Encounter night at church. He told me he had asked for prayers for our infertility journey. After receiving prayers, one of the individuals who prayed over him said that during the prayer, he had a vision of a child. When Ron told me this, my response was, “I don’t want to talk about this anymore.” Hoping had become too painful. Besides, I had already taken a pregnancy test that month, and it was negative. About a week later, I took a second test and found out I was pregnant. When Ron was being prayed over, I was already pregnant but didn’t know it. God had delivered on His promise.
Despite receiving this miracle of our daughter, Margaret, I realize that I am still a work in progress. While I believe that God is who He says he is and that He can do anything, I don’t always believe it will happen to me. Perhaps you also find that when things aren’t going the way you want them to, it’s hard to give up the control and trust that God’s plan is better than yours. I recently read a book by Danielle Bean called You are Enough. In it she said (paraphrasing), “perhaps sometimes God makes us wait for something so long so that we believe it is impossible…simply to prove to us that nothing is impossible for God.” In the moment, God’s plan doesn’t always make sense. But we trust that one day, either in this world or in Heaven, it will make sense. Until then, may we all use this time of Lent to draw closer to God, be brave enough to ask for exactly what we want and be bold enough to trust that whatever we receive is exactly what we need. God bless you all!